"Omg you must be so happy to have all your bridesmaids have their dresses AND have your invitations finally ordered! It's finally coming together Ashley!" - Me
"Yeah, it's nice." - Helen, picking off the top of her hang-nail.
"Are you okay? You don't seem too happy?? What's wrong?" - Me
"Oh, I am happy. I just have difficulty showing it. I'm happy about the wedding, but I guess I'm just not an affectionate person. But I'm working hard on it to show my fiancee that I am actually happy. It's just hard for me..." - Helen.
"Ok...Uhh...Ooo, the cheesecake is here!" - Me
In April 2013 my other best friend, Helen, is getting married. Thankfully she picked a beautiful bridesmaids dress, see post HERE, & things have been moving right along with the wedding planning. Helen & her fiancee met about 2 and a half years ago and they were engaged after a year. I'm still a little shocked about how fast this all came about, but everyone's lives are different. BUT Helen has acted weird with her fiancee from DAY 1. I'll explain.
She used to say oh yeah, Stephen, what's his face. She isn't really a jokester so I would laugh awkwardly at her remark. Then suddenly after a carriage ride through Central park she was engaged. I was happy for her and she at first was beaming from ear to ear. Even though I'm her best friend we really don't hang out together with our boyfriends so I don't know much about the fiancee. It's odd, but I never pushed the subject. Now less than 6 months from the wedding she is just so non-emotional towards her wedding that I'm really starting to say, "What the fuck is going on here??"
This isn't something that is going to be resolved tomorrow or possibly will never come to light but it is peculiar. I remember the day she told she got her wedding dress and she sounded like she was just stating a fact. I think I'm more excited and her sister than she is. She says she has a hard time showing how happy she is to her fiancee & others because she doesn't know how to be affectionate. I've known this girl for 15 years, I'm pretty sure she knows how to be affectionate, so what is it?? If your marrying someone shouldn't the affection come natural?? Shouldn't you be gushing constantly about your upcoming wedding??? At least a little bit? I mean come on, it's allowed because your the bride!!
Something is off here. I'm going to talk to her sister about this because it's worrying me. Or is this what cold feet is? I've never been married so I don't know... If your marrying someone you should be able to kiss them whenever you want & they should be your partner in crime sort of speak and they should want you to be the best person you can be in this world. Sigh...
Do You Think This All a Little Bit Odd??
I'd love to hear! I'm just getting into that phase of time w/ all the weddings and the babies so I'm not used to rolling w/ these punches yet. Until Tomorrow...